i was at luke house, sitting on his lap, smiling, giggling,
and i tickled his neck, so he tried to undo my top, but i carried on tickling,
why? because i loved seeing his little smile, i loved how happy and cute he looked,
but he kept trying to un zip my top, i liked it, it was kinda fun,
until i was on the floor, i banged my head and push him off,
i felt uncomfortable, i felt paranoid, then i felt sad,
id hurt his feelings, id made him feel bad,
i said sorry, made him get up and i hugged him,
but i started crying.. why? i have no idea,
it took me 8months to find the courage to kiss him,
every things going so fast,
i didn't want it to be like this,
i wanted it to go slow, it was my plan,
i don't want him to get bored, i don't want him to leave me,
i just want him forever,
after id stopped crying, he explained how he doesn't want me to feel pressured,
but sometimes, i feel the need to be like every other girl in my school,
i feel the need to let him do things to me else sophie would take the piss,
but i sometimes i feel uncomfortable,
he's the one boy I've ever felt comfortable around, the one boy who i can just smile at without being afraid of what i look like, the one boy who i can be myself around...
i feel so stupid, i ruined a lovely day, i'm sorry luke♥♥♥
